JAN 02 2001

Who am I?

I try so hard to do it right.
Pray without ceasing He says.
I try to pray.
My heart is so hard.
God seems to not be there anymore.
I try to give Him my whole.
The lusts of the world never go away.
They call me daily... food for the stomach
yes "that will satisfy",
only to find that again it does not.
only one thing is needful, only one thing
I am to desire.  To sit at the feet of Jesus
to Behold His beauty, to know Him more and more.
to worship Him, and serve Him, and attend to His every call.
Yet then I awake from my dream and realize
it is lunchtime.  oh my body says, I must go eat.
everyone eats at lunchtime.
Oh what a wretched man I am?
How will I ever conquer the desires of the flesh.
I struggle daily to completely yield my life to God.
yet always shrieking back.  Oh God, I will give you my all.
But wait, are you taking away my comfort?
Now wait a minute, what right have you to take away my comfort?
And then He gently reminds me, that I was bought with a price.
This vessel is not mine.  What right do I have to have any control
over this body.  God have mercy on me.  Please do not
deal with me, as you should.  Help me once again to yield my all.
Complete obedience and consecration to you.
Wherever you call me Lord, I will go.
Whatever you call me to do Lord, that I will do.
This life is yours, not mine.
"Take my life and let it be, wholly consecrated unto Thee."